Fifteen Weeks

I am now 15 weeks, and I think I felt something. Just a little tiny bump. Like a little person tapping on the other side of a wall. I wish I could be sure its Cinnabun and not just my stomach gurgling.

More snow last night.

Fog and Lasagna

January 20, 2010
We have had fog for the last two nights. I really really Love working in fog. It makes the aero planes look like big creatures, and you walk under them and can believe they are going to turn around and look at you. Every thing is so quite, and feels spooky yet calm. I also love the way the fog smells, and really helps with cutting out the smell of the fumes.

The Fox made lasagna tonight. He said he was going to make a big batch of it so I could eat some all week. I was really excited because when The Fox makes lasagna it is really superior. What I did not know is that The Fox has been reading some of the pregnancy books we got for him, and they told him if you ever cook for your pregnant wife, to make the food bland. What The Fox did not connect is they were saying, bland food is nicer for women with queasy stomachs, and morning sickness. Which I have neither of those.
So now he has made this big batch of bland lasagna, and I am going to have to eat the whole thing. Poor me, my own personal chef, who loves me enough to think about my stomach. Yes, I am spoiled.

Bed Hunting

The Fox and I have been for the last six years, been wanting a bed. A real one. There is just always something more important to put the money towards. Especially, when our ‘bed’ we have now works just fine. I have put a lot of work into making it a nice place to sleep. It just happens to be two rather thick futon mattresses, on an old wood futon frame, which I have raised it up almost a foot with ghetto green spray painted bricks.
I am finding now that a full size bed is just not going to be enough, for The Fox, myself, the half dozen pillows I need, and the three body pillows we have. A firm bed is good for the body for sure. But not then you are pregnant and getting bigger.
So, today The Fox and I have bought a bed. I won’t go into detail, because it is a good bed for a good price and I am satisfied.
We had to buy new sheets too, and a mattress pad. That was more fun than rolling around on unmade beds where who knows how many people have laid.

Snow at work

It has snowed every night for the last three nights. I love working in the snow, even if it makes life pretty crappy.

First Pre-Natal Visit

Today was my first pre-natal appointment. I went to go see one of two CNM’s (certified nurse midwife), who is only 2 miles from my house. I am not sure how I feel about her. I really want a *real midwife, but as my insurance only covers these two midwives in a 100 mile range, I have to see one of them. I do not like, nor do I trust doctors. They are not healers.
I was not to impressed by this provider, I wanted to be able to change my mind about the health industry and be able to believe there are some people who truly care. Yes, I do have a bit of a closed mind when it comes to today’s medical society, but I leave a space open enough to see changes.
As I want to always give more chances to things and people, I have made another appointment. So we will see next month.

(*I say real because these women are attached to a hospital, so they have to follow only hospital standers. And if you have does any research on midwives, you will know that they do things a little different. They have a healthier philosophy, on births, women, and health of the mind during child birth.)

Pillow Hunting

I needed a body pillow, so The Fox and I went pillow shopping. What I had in mind was a long down pillow. And yes I wanted it at a good price. I already had one and I had bought it at Target for $20. So we went to Target, and the only down pillow they had was $45. And it was not even close to par with the pillow I had bought before. Then we thought we would take a walk thought bed, bath, and beyond. They really didn’t have any thing at all. So The Fox and I went to JC Penny’s because they were closest. Still, they only had a few down body pillows and at prices I could not commit to. It was started to get late, and I had run out of snack food so I was getting hungry. We decided to try Sears, I don’t know why I never think about them. I don’t really like those types of department stores, and ‘penny’s’ was awkward enough to walk into.
So we walk over to the pillow section, and they had so many pillows. They had a down body pillow for $30, and it was really nice. But while I was looking at this pillow The Fox had wandered down the line and was looking at a sale where you can buy one get one free on alternative down body pillows. For 30 dollars! I take one look at him and relies I have to make a choice, because I am a sucker for this face he makes when he wants something also. Here I am thinking of spending a lot of money on a silly pillow for myself, when I could -for the same price- get one for The Fox and myself. Well I won’t let down that easy so I ask him what he is looking at, and he says, “Nothing”. HA! This is the funny game we play.
I say something like, “oh, well what type of imitation bird does alternative down come from any ways”? He sees his opening and starts telling me all about this type of alternative down, as if he were the world’s greatest sales person. I pretend to think for a moment, and then ask, “How do they smell”?
“I don’t know, probably better than down from a real bird.” He says. We stand there thinking about how birds smell. And so because I know when I should give in and when something is actually a good idea, we buy two rather nice, animal free, pillows for the same price as my heinous solitary pillow. My husband is happy and I am satisfied. My karma is clean.

Twelve Weeks

I am 12 weeks. Still not 100% sure of the dates, but I am pretty confident